little red riding hood

Wednesday, November 02, 2005

this blog is sort of in a hiatus. haha

Bangkok was a blast with the girls. photos still with them cos i was busy shopping instead of snapping. pity we didn't get to visit the clubs cos we were too busy shopping at night markets and all. but on the other hand, is was sort of good also, cos you know, female problems. hur

now it's back to school, but i feel like i'm still holidaying. i mean, anyone else would feel the same. so that sentence was kind of redundant. haha whatever, really.

looking forward to Aussie - Goldcoast!! bad news is i have to skip school for a week. hope i'm able to catch up, cos apparantly this semester's work is much tougher. *frowns

been slogging my ass off to earn back whatever i spent on the Bangkok trip.

this whole entry seems very off, like just blogging for the sake of blogging.

guess this blog is officially in a hiatus now, till i feel like blogging again. Ciaos!

she walked away at 11:41 AM

Wednesday, September 28, 2005

there have been a rise of idiots of late.

first is an Indian. well, i have been trying to control myself of turning into a total racist maniac but he's got to spoil it all so too bad to you Indians and Malays out there.

well this Indian Idiot is quite a good story teller i must say. if he's born in the old days, he'd have earned lots of money just by putting a dumb candle there and telling a dumb story. and he doesn't need to come up with different stories 'cause he can many twists to that first lil pathetic story he gladly came up with. let's give this Indian a first round of applause shall we? moving on, this Indian loves to boast about a certain something about ITself hoping it'd create an interest around the whold of Singapore but sadly, it's the reverse case. instead, we feel disgusted and irritated and will try to shun him wherever possible. actually i really have no idea how anyone can stick to that Indian and think It is the best thing in the world. hey Indian, no matter how big and powerful you are, you still have that Indian smell okay? you can't rid it you asshole. and if that's not enough, this Indian loves to deceive people using his ohsoperfect english and flawless writings to create an illusion for people to believe in. and when someone tries to break his goodygoody image, there he goes turning tables, twisting his words, turning a devil to a saint just by playing around with his words and stories, damaging friendships in the end. now, let's give this Indian a second round of applause. seriously, wake up your damn idea 'cause you can deceive those who are blinded by love and money, you can't deceive the clear headed. and you better draw the line and watch it. don't blame me if suddenly your house is set on fire. and probably burning you to death is already considered the lightest revenge done. oh yes, this Indian created that much hatred in me.

well next idiot is not an Indian. nothing much to be said about him just that i hope he can control his mouth and not shoot it around. like commenting photos are hideous? yeah, it may be hideous but as long as i can feel the happiness from that smile, i'm glad enough. dark eye rings and a lil wrinkle is definitely not an eye-candy but everyone will have to come to this stage and face it. what matters is that the heart is good and the cheerfulness is shown sincerely. he may not be the best looking person on earth yes, but look in the mirror, are you? you don't smile nicely either but have anyone commented about you so critically before? think about how you feel when someone says you have an inverted and fake smile. would you like it? anyway i'd prefer a cheerful person with dark eye rings to a mr ole' grumpy with perfectly fine eyes any other day. you have your shortcomings too so don't pick on others aiight? i never and will not step on your tail, don't step on mine. since i've decided to leave your life, i will stick to my decision and wish you all the best.

having that said, i shall give this blog a rest. until i find the need to blog 'cause this blog is losing its liveliness due to too much invasion. i'm heading for Shanghai on Monday. bye.

she walked away at 3:12 PM

Sunday, August 28, 2005

The Laptop's screaming for help but the owner's too busy to repair it. hur The Laptop has been infected with what seems like millions of viruses and the only way to revive it is to send to IBM. but before that, the owner's got to get a portable hard disk at Sim Lim to store all her precious songs and memorable peektures and important files before sending it for reformatting. but guess what? the owner's doing the same ole' thing she always does - procrastinating. hurhurhur it's also good in a way, cos exams are just around the corner, lesser distraction = better concentration. ;)

i can finally say i'm free of all projects and presentations, i was up to my neck preparing for all the presentations, buying formal wear and what-nots. oh yes i spent about $200 odd on formal wear, bought 2 suits. hahahaha and today i went shopping with mommy dearest and she bought me quite a bit of stuff, we even had dinner at yummy Soup Restaurant! one craving down! now with my craving for sashimi is yet to be satisfied. hur i think i spend money like they grow on trees, oops i mean my mom's money. haha but it's the same, isn't it? hurhur

these days are quite blissfully spent i must say. impromptu lunches, shopping sprees in the east, study sessions at the airport and KAP, heart to heart talks with The Best Friend are ever so nice. never-ending chitchat/gossip/yakking and laughter were exchanged. very very nice feeling, really. and then there was Rabbit picking me up to meet her for the lunch, picking us up for our study sessions and later for dinner treats. then pigging out and watching HK drama serials, nice scenery in the night over at Bugis. everything falls into place perfectly, just with my best friend and companion. uber contented. (:

back to reality and enough with the lala fairy-tale land i seek refuge in, exams are in about 2 weeks time and i haven't really got down to study. i foresee many many pimples, excess fat oozing out from my already-very-fat body, panda-lookalike me, dull skin, etc. and after that, i hope (note: the word is hope) i'm able to find a high paying (haha) job to fund me for my holidays (think Bangkok, HongKong, Shanghai, Phuket, Aussie). and i also wanna spend more time with Rabbit, showering him with more care and concern (cos i think i'd give him shit while being stressed out by the idiotic exams). gosh, i'm already planning my holiday schedule when i haven't even gone through my exams. wish me luck all, seriously i need it. and best of luck to those that are sitting for exams soon (especially to The Bestfriend and Shu hiang), hope you guys do well and enjoy the hols to the max!

i have no idea when i'm blogging again, but till then, don't miss me too much. (: Ciao!

she walked away at 7:50 PM

Thursday, August 04, 2005

*big sniff. i miss the smell of my little blog. hur sounds dumb but whatever.

haven't had the time to blog nor post pictures, and yes i've finally stopped procrastinating. some brownie points for me yes?

these days have been really hectic, with rushing of projects; when projects end, come tests; and soon the dreaded exams. i feel like my life is so fast-paced. like, i have no time to breathe. argh. i feel like i'm in some kind of deja vu, like the whole nonsense above i've typed it in one of my entries before. oh yes, that was last semester and last last semester and definitely more complaints from me to come. ha-ha-ha oh have i mentioned my results suck? sheesh, gotta work hard for finals.

nevermind about the mundane stuff. other than that, my life's pretty fulfilling. went km8 for the very first time in my life (yah lah, i'm like very slow i know, but it's okay i'll be going there again. *bleah) after the last test paper, had salad and some wine to drink. atmosphere was superb, laidback, relaxed, comfortable.

last wednesday - clubbing at Home. boo's party. keegan and rabbit and my cousin - alex. vodkalime. gotdamnhigh. r&ballnightdancelikehell. scaldedmyhandwithcandlewax. lotsoffamiliarfaces. wentclickclick(photo-taking lah)around. reallyhadfunthatnight. thanksboo. thanks to rabbit keegan alex for taking care of me. moreclubbingsessionstocomeyes?

caught up with May and Shu hiang like finally. old friends are still the best to keep, they know you best. thankyou babes for being around after so long, listening to me, giving me support, telling me my weaknesses, everything. you're deeply appreciated. pleasepleaseplease meet up again very quickly, my weak heart can't take missing you lovely people. (:

oh have i mentioned i have a new orange adidas jacket?!?! somesweetrabbit bought it for me just 'cause i complained i was cold in school due to the rainy weather and the uber cold aircon in the classroom and library. that person drove all the way from Tampines to my school just to pass me the jacket and to think i didn't suspect anything at all. now, everyone go awwwwwwww. hur okay, shall contain my happiness. and today i was in a bad mood 'cause of yours truly's terrible results, he bought me tattyteddybear to cheer me up. the things he buy are not really very extravagant but it's very extraordinary, and that itself costs a lot more money can buy. isn't he the sweetest? i really shouldn't bother about what other people say, this is between the both of us, i should not let others affect us. i'm very much in love you.

tomorrow's thurday! yayzers! i can finally sleep late, spend some time with the sweetrabbit and head down to queensway for some shopping and to the famous yongtaufu stall for dinner. *yummy! i love thursdays, really. they perk me up. (: but i somehow dread next thursday, 'cause i have to study for ECD, damnit. and if that's not bad enough, on National Day, where almost the whole of Singapore (except my classmates and my fellow CMA lecture mates) is celebrating merrily, partying at the Padang, romantic couples watching the fireworks together, i have to studying for CMA test. like wow, how perfect is that? *sulks.

shall psycho myself to look forward to the school vacation. but you see, before vacation comes exams. so erm, i am seriously contradicting myself. i hate school, really! ):

*pictures-glory-pictures time!

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collage of our fondue outing, km8 dinner, keegan's birthday and clubbing.

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my lovely cousin whose dancing is damn fan-effing-tastic.

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me and bestie\boo. (:

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the rest of the crazy people. hur

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Sunday, July 17, 2005

i figured i shouldn't get pissed or worked-up by two sorts of people:

A) people who are copycats. they copy about almost everything you do/wear/speak/act/blog, et cetera. either they have no creativity, or they simply adore you they have to be like you. how does it feel, when you own something, and someone saw it, she gets an exact replica (either the same one itself, or a cheaper version) of it? or when you start using some words that are rather extraordinary and unique and then someone else starts using them out of the blue. hmm.. i used to get really fed up by copycats, i wanna go up to their faces, smack them, and say hey get an effing life will you?! but no, i choose to contain my anger and swallow them all back in, giving them the benefit of the doubt that probably it's all coincidence. but too many occasions is one too many coincidence isn't it? but then again, i should look at the whole issue in a different light, for if nobody wants to copy or imitate you, means you have no substance for a copycat to follow at the very first place. so thanks to all you copycats out there! (i'm really not trying to say woah everyone likes to copy me, but then again i don't have to explain why i came up with this entry.)

B) people who are not sincere friends. i have this good secondary school friend (not Maybelline), we used to hang out and everything, we'll go to each other when things crop up, we used to study for the big O's together, even upon graduating we still made an effort to keep in contact and meet up. i don't deny she can never replace *ahem Ms Tan as a bestfriend, but i still put in 100% effort in the friendship. however, mr-perfect-for-her came into her life and slowly we started drifting away. i still made effort in asking her out but she claims she's busy with school work and all that. and as far as i can remember, i was the one doing all the smsing and calling. either her handphone forbids her to text or call out, or she doesn't know where the "create message" or the "call" button is. i brought the matter up before, about her not sincere in asking me out cos it was always the case of a one way street but she denies the accusation and insists she's busy. okay, so you're busy, but will an occassional message or phonecall to yours truly take up so much of your precious time? it's the small little "hello, how you doing" that shows me i'm not forgotten as your friend, even though school work is piling up or your darlingboyfriend demands all your time. you can't say i never address the issue because i did bring it up but you just wave it off. so now, i've decided not to contact you till you do (sounds childish yeah, but hey, i have my pride too). if you think i don't matter to you as a good friend, i can jolly well forget about your presence too. it's just letting you taste your own medicine my dear.

fwah, letting it all out of my chest feels superbly great. i'm amazed i'm still calm after typing the whole chunk above. maybe mixing with rabbit makes me a more patient person. *wink i think i'm on the course in attaining nirvana man, seriously. hahaha

anyway Cma paper is down, left with 3 more. i'm actualy fretting more for Hrm and Blaw, 'cause my brain juices are already used up for Cma and Fmgt, i'm left witl close to nothing for the memorising modules. drats! but i'm looking forward to the activities planned for me after the dreadful tests. *lalalalala (no i'm not trying to be Lala in Tellytubbies. *looks at rabbit. (you know what i mean) hurhur)

i promise i'll upload peekaboos soon, been REALLLLLYYYY lazy. (:

she walked away at 2:45 PM

Monday, July 11, 2005

these days.. everything's moving at a fast pace and there's this extra spring in every step i take. hurhur is this happiness? i wish time could just disappear into thin air now and everything will come to a standstill for i do not wish it to end.

i finally got my N7610, it's a beauty i tell you, with the nice blackbrownwhite housing and my blingbling K handphone strap, all the nice songs and themes downloaded into this new baby of mine, ultimate happiness.

and i did my hair on Saturday too, it's like jet black now, with more bounce but a tad bit short at the back, but i'm cool with it, 'cause now i look so bloodyjapschoolgirl (except without the uniform). talking about fetishes. hurhur

went suntanning with the dearest girlfriend on Sunday, i didn't burn nor look tanned, something's wrong with my skin, with so many of those white cells (whatever you call them, really) that prevent me from getting dark. drats! but nonetheless i really had fun with the babe for she's always the one that is able to make me laugh out loud and smile from the bottom of my heart. i just can never hide anything from her, thank you for listening to my long-winded story. it's much appreciated.

after which i went to find rabbit and he helped me load nice songs into my new darling, now i won't have that retarded default ringtone Nokia has got to offer. i studied a lil there, not much went in (no points for guessing why) then headed to Adam's Road for some prawn noodles and then to Marina South to hit the arcade machines. 'twas really fun and exciting!

i kind of love hanging out with rabbits and taurus-es. (you know what i mean May, hurhur) (:

she walked away at 2:08 PM

Thursday, July 07, 2005

i hereby announce:
it's over, yet again.

i've decided to put a stop to a 2 and a 1/2 year story, and yes i'm gonna stick to my decision. it's high time i should. so if i ever look back, please knock me in the head and ask me to wake up my effing idea alright?

hur

char* you know it's not your fault that you have no idea what i'm talking about, it takes two hands to clap and i haven't been doing my part either. what say you we go tanning come this sunday? let me know asap yes. we can then catch up all we want, i miss you babe, even though i'm not around for you and we don't talk often doesnt imply my care for you got any lesser ok? loveyougirlfriend. (:

may* i'm so bloody excited meeting you tomorrow. scream this with me: yipppppeeee!!! haha

she walked away at 7:25 PM

Sunday, July 03, 2005

i went to see you again, i can't seem to control myself can i?

but i can't help it, you're just too fun to hang out with.

am i like expecting the impossible? i hope not.

it's not possible, not even close, and can never come true.

but.. i'm just amazed. like, how in the world can i ever find such a sweet and romantic person?

we'd be so happy together, doing silly things, making each other laugh, poking fun at each other, exploring every inch of Singapore, driving to Malaysia, etc.

but, you just can never be mine.

is it the timing? or the age? or something unspeakable?

so many times, i wanna tell you how i feel but it's so damn inappropriate.

tell me what to do, really. walk away and avoid you? i can't bring myself to do that for "it's the hardest thing i'll ever have to do, to turn around and walk away pretending i don't love you".

this feeling of having you so close to me, but then at the same time so far from me, so unreachable, so distant from me, it truly sucks and hurts.

and to make things worst, i'm meeting you for breakfast tomorrow. GAWD!

she walked away at 11:45 PM

Saturday, July 02, 2005

it's Friday i'm in love.. (it's part of a song, so don't let your imaginations run wild)

i kind of love Fridays. cos it's the start of the weekend! yippee..

today was very perfecto (it's not typo mind you) celebrating three of my classmates' birthday, surprising them with a delicious chocolate cake, and lovely presents. we had our fair share of singing the birthday song and making a din at the convention centre (but this is not new, hehe), picking out candles with mouths, smashing cakes and cream at each other, running about. Happy Birthday once again Szeling, Anthea, ZhiXuan. hope you guys enjoyed the surprise we planned for you. (:

then off i went to meet rabbit. he drove all the way to Ngee Ann to pick me up, and was waiting at KAP while we had the cake-cutting session. how sweet, hehe. then off we went to catch Initial-d. it was not bad at all, with all the screeching of the cars during cornerings (is that a word?), and some gushing of teenage girls behind us. the latter was quite irritating though. haha then off we went to Turf City to have late lunch/tea/early dinner. i had my fair share of fun while turning his steering wheel left and right while he step on the accelerator. it was really fun man. haha can't wait to drive. hur

then he sent me home at like 6pm? wow home so early on a Friday. but i'm cool, i get to upload pictures (yah finally), edit them, find lyrics, blog, et cetera, et cetera. my parents came back and were sort of shocked to see me home. haha like hello, it's not like every night i come back late, their expressions were really hilarious at that point of time. funny parents i've got. =P

i am truly happy that time passes so quickly, and it seemingly makes life a lot easier to tide through. but honestly, i'm just sad because life and moments keep slipping away so abruptly. and everything becomes a memory - a distant memory. but at the same time, as time passes this fast, you lose the details of the memory, colours fade, images blur. and that makes me emotional/sentimental/upset.

we just become fading details of memories.

people, places and dates.

sigh you know.. i don't want this to be just a memory.. but it's difficult..

*xoxo

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my guardian angel from may dearest. (:

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a snapshot of me by mr rabbit. tsk.

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